Juli 30, 2015

1am thoughts

Udah lewat tengah malem dan ini situasi yang tidak begitu baik. Mungkin karena saya jadi lebih emosional diatas jam 11 malam dan juga tugas dasar programming yang sama sekali belum jadi. Level prokrastinasi yang sangat membahayakan. Tugas ini sebenarnya muncul 2 minggu sebelum hari raya idul fitri dan deadline 2 minggu setelahnya. Kurang 4 hari lagi sebuah aplikasi harus jadi untuk didemokan dan disinilah saya, browsing all night long watching funny videos. Kadang tingkat kemalasan ini sangat mengherankan dan menyebalkan.

Sometimes, I self-diagnosed myself that I'm depressed (like seriously in medical term) and I need a help. But then I think that maybe I just need a sleep, and I sleep like a bear. Do I really need to see a professional? Also my lacking ability to mantain a relationship with my friends, I aced it. My best one is pushing people away when in fact it'd be nice to have someone to talk to and not stressing around whether you annoy them or not. Those anxiety attack sucks.

I have a friend from my JHS years back then (I hope she considerates me as her friend too).